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sure no one liked Squeeze but at least we walked through the fire
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jazzfishCleaners and "floor-planner" and photographer come today, starting in just under half an hour, and then we list on Monday (for what I had realistically and then optimistically hoped to get, which in practice in this market means probably somewhat less but eh).
Corvaric is about three-quarters of the way to being a blank slate. The last couple of days have entailed packing up things I still need, so that it will Look Nice for the photographs. (I shall unpack at least some of them once today is over with.) This has been frustrating because it means finding a Home for things that already HAVE a Home and are in it. But it's pretty much ready to go. I have even done some v basic spackle and paint work, for which I had to buy an entire gallon of paint because they didn't have any quart containers, but maybe the next people will appreciate it.
My brain can apparently only cope with so much at a time. I know that I'm going to the Gathering next month but I have been unable to plan for that in any real way, like timing or plane tickets or anything. Far as my brain is concerned, things that happen after Monday don't really exist. April is a nebulous blur and past that, I get nothing, it's a huge blank.
Facebook reminds me that four years ago I was standing in an apartment surrounded by boxes. I guess it's a small win for my psyche that the boxes are in a storage unit this time.
I'm gonna miss this place. It is Too Small but not by a whole lot: a second bedroom for a library/office would have made it perfect. (The unit upstairs from mine, with the same floorplan but with the addition of a loft over the kitchen, was for sale about a year before I bought my place. For, as I recall, what I'm asking now. O, Vancouver.) I've even mostly reconciled to the kitchen having an insufficiency of counterspace and drawers. I won't miss the Stifling In Summer, though. Or the upstairs neighbours who vacuum and galumph at all hours, though they probably won't miss the viola playing either, so, fair enough.
I've had the Paranoid Style's "Doug Yule" stuck in my head for the last few days. It's loosely about the guy who Lou Reed recruited to turn the Velvet Underground from a set of clashing personalities making really interesting music to the Lou Reed Backup Band, while the rest of the band quit one by one, eventually including Reed himself. I've rehearsed and rehearsed that my life is a curse / I've been driven away in a rudderless hearse / I've made things that were merely awful much much much much much worse (much worse) (much worse). (Interestingly I think that verse is written to be from the perspective of Sterling Morrison, the second VU member to leave after Reed fired John Cale. I think the verses are each from a different VU member, and the choruses from Reed. I appreciate that a lot.)
Onward to face the day.
Corvaric is about three-quarters of the way to being a blank slate. The last couple of days have entailed packing up things I still need, so that it will Look Nice for the photographs. (I shall unpack at least some of them once today is over with.) This has been frustrating because it means finding a Home for things that already HAVE a Home and are in it. But it's pretty much ready to go. I have even done some v basic spackle and paint work, for which I had to buy an entire gallon of paint because they didn't have any quart containers, but maybe the next people will appreciate it.
My brain can apparently only cope with so much at a time. I know that I'm going to the Gathering next month but I have been unable to plan for that in any real way, like timing or plane tickets or anything. Far as my brain is concerned, things that happen after Monday don't really exist. April is a nebulous blur and past that, I get nothing, it's a huge blank.
Facebook reminds me that four years ago I was standing in an apartment surrounded by boxes. I guess it's a small win for my psyche that the boxes are in a storage unit this time.
I'm gonna miss this place. It is Too Small but not by a whole lot: a second bedroom for a library/office would have made it perfect. (The unit upstairs from mine, with the same floorplan but with the addition of a loft over the kitchen, was for sale about a year before I bought my place. For, as I recall, what I'm asking now. O, Vancouver.) I've even mostly reconciled to the kitchen having an insufficiency of counterspace and drawers. I won't miss the Stifling In Summer, though. Or the upstairs neighbours who vacuum and galumph at all hours, though they probably won't miss the viola playing either, so, fair enough.
I've had the Paranoid Style's "Doug Yule" stuck in my head for the last few days. It's loosely about the guy who Lou Reed recruited to turn the Velvet Underground from a set of clashing personalities making really interesting music to the Lou Reed Backup Band, while the rest of the band quit one by one, eventually including Reed himself. I've rehearsed and rehearsed that my life is a curse / I've been driven away in a rudderless hearse / I've made things that were merely awful much much much much much worse (much worse) (much worse). (Interestingly I think that verse is written to be from the perspective of Sterling Morrison, the second VU member to leave after Reed fired John Cale. I think the verses are each from a different VU member, and the choruses from Reed. I appreciate that a lot.)
Onward to face the day.
Chip (crisp) tasting
Mar. 27th, 2026 08:03 pmfred_mouseNew-to-me flavour of chips: Thins Potato Chips Margherita Pizza.
Soooo tasty. Strong on the fake cheese, light on the tomato, reasonable on the basil / other herbs.
(brought home by Youngest from a picnic. This might be a short term variant).
can i walk around my shadow
Mar. 26th, 2026 11:17 pmthe_siobhanAchievement unlock.
Back when it first became confirmed that my vestibular damage was permanent I bought one of those bike stand things that turns your normal bicycle into a stationary bike. I figured even it was no good for transportation at least that way I could still use it, only without the falling off and throwing myself into traffic part.
I still do fall off it sometimes when the gravity is really bad. At least don't have to contend with cars.
Anyway that was 15... maybe 20 years ago now? I dunno, time is toffee. Anyway, the original stand had plastic bits, like foot-pads and adjustment pieces and they had been gradually breaking off over the years. So recently I replaced it with a second stand. And last week I was using it and there was a snapping sound and the bike just... sagged. While I was sitting on it. When I got off and took it apart it turned out that the rear axle - the one that supports all the weight - had sheared right off.
The axle was a part of the assembly kit and it was exactly the same between the two stands so I didn't bother changing it when I swapped. So I spent three days digging through The Stuff to find the second axle that came with the new stand. Which I found. Also the assembly manual. That manual was laughably useless, whoever wrote it wasn't even trying. BUT! There are videos online demonstrating how to assemble the stand, so I watched those to figure out how everything goes together. Assembly did not require tools. Getting pieces of metal that have been living next to each other for possibly more than two decades to now let go of each other, that required tools. (One of those tools being a hammer.)
Bike now functional. Skill upgraded.
***
Something that is very much above my skill grade, the stairs that lead up to my top floor go straight up until they meet exterior of the bathroom wall and turn and continue to go up until they meet the second floor. At the corner of the turn there is a light on the ceiling. It's probably 10-12 feet above the step immediately below it.
The lightbulb in that light has burnt out.
Fucked if I know how I'm going to get up there. There's no landing to put a ladder. I have a ladder that extends, I could maybe brace it against the door on the ground floor and then against the wall at the top, but then I'd have to climb up it while it's bent over and the idea of my permanently dizzy ass trying to stand on ladder rungs that are tilted?
Yeah I don't think so.
I have a nephew that used to have those rock climbing hand holds all over his bedroom as a teenager so he could make it from the door to his bed without touching the floor. I'm going to ask him to do it.
***
Tomatoes I seeded at the start of the month are growing like gangbusters. All but two of the seeds sprouted and multiple seeds have produced twins or triplets.
Not one of the peppers has broken soil.
This has been the story every year. So help me, I am going to figure out what I am doing wrong. I WILL CONQUER THE PEPPER.
***
I have a stack of paper on my desk that I am trying to force myself through. Scribbled notes with instructions and reminders, notices from the city, bills, voting information, appointments I have to make, letters I have to write to politicians, ugh.
I promised myself I would set aside a day and just dig through this pile this weekend. I need to set up a schedule, one day a month I will deal with all the "paper" crap. Otherwise it gets very large and overwhelming.
On the plus side, today I walked to the farmer's market and it was raining but also very warm. And one of the farmers had a sow that rejected her piglets so they were all at the market being carried around like dolls by the staff. (When I was a child I thought pigs got to be the size of a golden retriever. Then I visited my Irish family and one of them had a farm and introduced me to his sow. So I don't think that any more.)
There are worse things in life than being able to pet a sleepy piglet.
Back when it first became confirmed that my vestibular damage was permanent I bought one of those bike stand things that turns your normal bicycle into a stationary bike. I figured even it was no good for transportation at least that way I could still use it, only without the falling off and throwing myself into traffic part.
I still do fall off it sometimes when the gravity is really bad. At least don't have to contend with cars.
Anyway that was 15... maybe 20 years ago now? I dunno, time is toffee. Anyway, the original stand had plastic bits, like foot-pads and adjustment pieces and they had been gradually breaking off over the years. So recently I replaced it with a second stand. And last week I was using it and there was a snapping sound and the bike just... sagged. While I was sitting on it. When I got off and took it apart it turned out that the rear axle - the one that supports all the weight - had sheared right off.
The axle was a part of the assembly kit and it was exactly the same between the two stands so I didn't bother changing it when I swapped. So I spent three days digging through The Stuff to find the second axle that came with the new stand. Which I found. Also the assembly manual. That manual was laughably useless, whoever wrote it wasn't even trying. BUT! There are videos online demonstrating how to assemble the stand, so I watched those to figure out how everything goes together. Assembly did not require tools. Getting pieces of metal that have been living next to each other for possibly more than two decades to now let go of each other, that required tools. (One of those tools being a hammer.)
Bike now functional. Skill upgraded.
***
Something that is very much above my skill grade, the stairs that lead up to my top floor go straight up until they meet exterior of the bathroom wall and turn and continue to go up until they meet the second floor. At the corner of the turn there is a light on the ceiling. It's probably 10-12 feet above the step immediately below it.
The lightbulb in that light has burnt out.
Fucked if I know how I'm going to get up there. There's no landing to put a ladder. I have a ladder that extends, I could maybe brace it against the door on the ground floor and then against the wall at the top, but then I'd have to climb up it while it's bent over and the idea of my permanently dizzy ass trying to stand on ladder rungs that are tilted?
Yeah I don't think so.
I have a nephew that used to have those rock climbing hand holds all over his bedroom as a teenager so he could make it from the door to his bed without touching the floor. I'm going to ask him to do it.
***
Tomatoes I seeded at the start of the month are growing like gangbusters. All but two of the seeds sprouted and multiple seeds have produced twins or triplets.
Not one of the peppers has broken soil.
This has been the story every year. So help me, I am going to figure out what I am doing wrong. I WILL CONQUER THE PEPPER.
***
I have a stack of paper on my desk that I am trying to force myself through. Scribbled notes with instructions and reminders, notices from the city, bills, voting information, appointments I have to make, letters I have to write to politicians, ugh.
I promised myself I would set aside a day and just dig through this pile this weekend. I need to set up a schedule, one day a month I will deal with all the "paper" crap. Otherwise it gets very large and overwhelming.
On the plus side, today I walked to the farmer's market and it was raining but also very warm. And one of the farmers had a sow that rejected her piglets so they were all at the market being carried around like dolls by the staff. (When I was a child I thought pigs got to be the size of a golden retriever. Then I visited my Irish family and one of them had a farm and introduced me to his sow. So I don't think that any more.)
There are worse things in life than being able to pet a sleepy piglet.
Sucreabeille: Bitter Orange
Mar. 26th, 2026 10:11 pmbrigid"Bitter Orange" is from a monthly subscription bag and I can't find it on the site. It came with Wake the Dead. Both share bitter/burnt/caramel notes.
The description of Bitter Orange is "So much orange, burnt sugar, salted caramel, and chocolate."
I was looking forward to this but I don't really detect caramel or chocolate and the orange is very bitter and astringent, not orange-juice-y. I really like a few of their chocolate scents, especially Here's the thing: fuck everyone.
To be fair, I have a difficult relationship with orange juice and oranges since starting lithium (which I stopped taking because although it's a miracle solution for many people I had all the weird bad side effects that weren't potentially deadly, including it affecting my taste). Oranges/orange juice have tasted utterly foul since then, a taste I can't even describe except "bad" or "danger." It doesn't taste rotten or spoiled; it doesn't taste like garbage; it doesn't taste acrid or chemical-y. It just tastes like "do not drink."
For quite a long time that's how water tasted but it rarely does now, thank goodness. I was so, so thirsty.
So I don't really detect orange in this, which is a shame as I love the smell of oranges, and I don't pick up on chocolate even though I do in other perfumes they make.
I don't like this one. I don't think it's a "doesn't play well with my skin" thing either because even in the bottle it smells simplistic - like burnt sugar, but not sugar that's burnt in a nice way.when I make caramel sauce I make it darker than most people do, just this edge of burnt, a hint of bitter that livens it up. I was really anticipating liking this scent.
Alas.
It does have an interesting smoke-but-not-smoke essence to it a few hours after I put it on but it's not interesting enough to keep wearing and, again, the bitterness overshadows it.
I can really see this appealing to a certain type of person who's into bitter burnt sugar stuff but it's not for me.
The description of Bitter Orange is "So much orange, burnt sugar, salted caramel, and chocolate."
I was looking forward to this but I don't really detect caramel or chocolate and the orange is very bitter and astringent, not orange-juice-y. I really like a few of their chocolate scents, especially Here's the thing: fuck everyone.
To be fair, I have a difficult relationship with orange juice and oranges since starting lithium (which I stopped taking because although it's a miracle solution for many people I had all the weird bad side effects that weren't potentially deadly, including it affecting my taste). Oranges/orange juice have tasted utterly foul since then, a taste I can't even describe except "bad" or "danger." It doesn't taste rotten or spoiled; it doesn't taste like garbage; it doesn't taste acrid or chemical-y. It just tastes like "do not drink."
For quite a long time that's how water tasted but it rarely does now, thank goodness. I was so, so thirsty.
So I don't really detect orange in this, which is a shame as I love the smell of oranges, and I don't pick up on chocolate even though I do in other perfumes they make.
I don't like this one. I don't think it's a "doesn't play well with my skin" thing either because even in the bottle it smells simplistic - like burnt sugar, but not sugar that's burnt in a nice way.when I make caramel sauce I make it darker than most people do, just this edge of burnt, a hint of bitter that livens it up. I was really anticipating liking this scent.
Alas.
It does have an interesting smoke-but-not-smoke essence to it a few hours after I put it on but it's not interesting enough to keep wearing and, again, the bitterness overshadows it.
I can really see this appealing to a certain type of person who's into bitter burnt sugar stuff but it's not for me.
Star Trek sadness
Mar. 26th, 2026 10:41 pmegretStarfleet Academy is cancelled and S2 will be the last one. This is sad because it's a good show. But the interests of the IP holders are not my interests.
I will cancel Paramount Plus and go back to my plan of buying all of Trek on DVD.
I saw a rumor somewhere that there's going to be a whole new Trek movie in a whole new timeline with all new people, unrelated to any prior show. But it's very much in preproduction. It may never happen.
Somehow I never thought I would outlive Star Trek. I guess technically I haven't yet so I guess fingers crossed I do!
I will cancel Paramount Plus and go back to my plan of buying all of Trek on DVD.
I saw a rumor somewhere that there's going to be a whole new Trek movie in a whole new timeline with all new people, unrelated to any prior show. But it's very much in preproduction. It may never happen.
Somehow I never thought I would outlive Star Trek. I guess technically I haven't yet so I guess fingers crossed I do!
Music system advice?
Mar. 26th, 2026 10:10 pmegretMy music situation:
Many years of subscription to Apple Music but with just a few playlists. I listen mostly via headphones because I struggle to remember to charge my bluetooth speaker, and I think my Apple speakers are outdated. Apple Music has the most complete library of my musical tastes. It's $10/month.
I currently have Amazon Prime and am wondering about ordering one of those Amazon speakers and just using Amazon Music, which apparently comes with Prime. I'm playing it right now on my Fire tablet and it seems fine. Then I could stop subscribing to Apple Music, although that means rebuilding my library.
I also have a ton of CDs from before my streaming switchover that I had intended to sell or donate but never quite parted with. My car has a CD player so sometimes I do play them. I see that now they sell CD players that will stream to bluetooth speakers - or I could simply buy an old-fashioned boom box. I could give up streaming music and go back to buying CDs. No playlists though. Although I guess I would still have Amazon Music for that.
Has anyone else wrestled with these issues and found good solutions? I'm interested in other people's experiences with giving up streaming or with switching from Apple Music to other providers.
Many years of subscription to Apple Music but with just a few playlists. I listen mostly via headphones because I struggle to remember to charge my bluetooth speaker, and I think my Apple speakers are outdated. Apple Music has the most complete library of my musical tastes. It's $10/month.
I currently have Amazon Prime and am wondering about ordering one of those Amazon speakers and just using Amazon Music, which apparently comes with Prime. I'm playing it right now on my Fire tablet and it seems fine. Then I could stop subscribing to Apple Music, although that means rebuilding my library.
I also have a ton of CDs from before my streaming switchover that I had intended to sell or donate but never quite parted with. My car has a CD player so sometimes I do play them. I see that now they sell CD players that will stream to bluetooth speakers - or I could simply buy an old-fashioned boom box. I could give up streaming music and go back to buying CDs. No playlists though. Although I guess I would still have Amazon Music for that.
Has anyone else wrestled with these issues and found good solutions? I'm interested in other people's experiences with giving up streaming or with switching from Apple Music to other providers.
a story in four Poasts
Mar. 26th, 2026 08:35 pmkradeelavAct I
>> you know what would make me actually learn blender.
> recreating all of tellius as a low poly walkable terrain/game
>> krad, n o .
(dw i'm not seriously considering this)
(.......................................yet)
Act II
honestly if i get ahold of the PoR/RD HD textures floating around out there made by a kind soul that's half the hard work done.... and would be more faithful to the style...
^ is a liar and considering this more than i should
Act III
heh heh. heh heh heh heh ~
(context: actual PoR texture deconverted from a dds file in the HD texture pack. i'm almost positive this is the terrain texture for nasir's ship.)
Act IV
i legit became a senior design manager / published comicker off of sheer FE9 blorbo dedication for the last twenty years, it honestly would not surprise me in the slightest if gamedev somehow became the next skill tree for the next ten, l o l
~ postscript ~
as surprised/excited as i was about this, i'm not seriously going to do anything other than slowly deconverting files until after the doujin is done late this year because the momentum's already gotten me almost halfway through it. however, after the doujin's done... i think i found my next large project. :3c
>> you know what would make me actually learn blender.
> recreating all of tellius as a low poly walkable terrain/game
>> krad, n o .
(dw i'm not seriously considering this)
(.......................................yet)
Act II
honestly if i get ahold of the PoR/RD HD textures floating around out there made by a kind soul that's half the hard work done.... and would be more faithful to the style...
^ is a liar and considering this more than i should
Act III
heh heh. heh heh heh heh ~
(context: actual PoR texture deconverted from a dds file in the HD texture pack. i'm almost positive this is the terrain texture for nasir's ship.)
Act IV
i legit became a senior design manager / published comicker off of sheer FE9 blorbo dedication for the last twenty years, it honestly would not surprise me in the slightest if gamedev somehow became the next skill tree for the next ten, l o l
~ postscript ~
as surprised/excited as i was about this, i'm not seriously going to do anything other than slowly deconverting files until after the doujin is done late this year because the momentum's already gotten me almost halfway through it. however, after the doujin's done... i think i found my next large project. :3c
journaling ... again
Mar. 26th, 2026 06:38 pmasuraiddamn its a topic i always cycle back to, but it's because i still haven't found a system i truly can like ... sink into? my journaling in general is a very haphazard collection of thoughts mostly across my social medias (tumblr, dreamwidth, pillowfort) or in discord chats ... but the thing is, for private journals i dont have anything i've really honed into, or that i can stick with, and it kinda sucks!!
cause my requirements for an offline private journal is like...
- i can use it on PC and mobile
- i can use it offline
which like, obsidian does that, but i just cant? get into writing on obsidian...????? at least for journaling. i think its because i dont open it daily to give myself a like 'oh, i should write things down' ... well tbf i also don't have that habit in general to journal. i thought dump easily, but sitting to reflect on a day definitely doesn't come naturally
im mostly thinking about it because of my ... burnout? at least this low motivation spree of time for the last few weeks, and as much as i do feel comfortable yapping about it on dreamwidth, i also tend to be aware when im venting about the same things and wanna take it to private where i feel no personal judgement in talking about it. its just ... as said, annoying because i dont have the habit to journal, nor found the proper app/system that quite works with me and is portable enough to where i can do it on mobile, and PC, and be able to be offline (that isnt obsidian???? idk whats wrong with my brain and it not clicking :( )
i think it might just be because i use obsidian for other stuff as well, rather than just having a dedicated space for it--making a journal note in obsidian is no different than doing any other note. i kinda wish the integrated apple journal could be used on PC cause then i might be more incentivized to use it, but also its Apple. no LMFAO
spirit city has a journal built into it, but it's PC only ... sighs it feels like im searching for an impossible find, or maybe there is an app out there and i just havent... looked enough? one that's free, hopefully :/
memoria is also cool but ... mobile only :skull:
do i just need to ... try more with obsidian????? mayb i will. it’s just hard that once i fall off a habit, going back to it is really, really hard. i think this exhaustion for the last few weeks is just slowly catching up to me that it feels like it’s clawing at me to escape it somehow
maybe i need to let go of the idea of needing to be consistent with it, its just also the desire to be a BIT more consistent and not letting it rot for months on end, even for just the most basic 'whats a highlight of the day' kinda post. maybe prettifying my daily note template might inspire me more, plus swapping out the dividers based off the dividers i've got saved on tumblr
trying to leave it loose with sections i can just delete if i dont want them
[entry]
Mar. 26th, 2026 05:34 pmchurinso i spoke with my supervisors about moving departments and they were a-okay with it!! i was so surprised, because transferring at my previous jobs were borderline impossible! i might start doing some training for said department tomorrow if we're not too busy (i doubt we will), so i'm pretty excited! for once i'm not dreading work the next day~ hehe
Thinking
Mar. 26th, 2026 11:40 amgrayestofghostsI am thinking about how one of the reasons I don't post here much is because I keep thinking I have something dumb I want to say in the middle of the day, and then I think, "oh, what if I want to say something later? Then maybe I just should wait", except in that case I only ever post AFTER journaling and AFTER novel drafting and by then I'm all written out and just want to go to sleep. I am realizing this is kind of a dumb thing to do and it won't kill me if I actually do make two posts in a day if something really needs to be posted later for some reason. So. Hello, world.
Madame Chop Chop Has Arrived
Mar. 26th, 2026 05:40 pmstefanyeahShe's here! My newest bookbinding bestie!
#bookbinding
Also almost finished Mum's Easter presssie. 
Madame Chop Chop has arrived
#bookbinding #guillotine #travelersNotebook Here she is, ready to get up to the attic. Only about 18kg something, according to the postman. I splurged and also got a new ruler. 30cm are a bit too short sometimes, 50 should be a good length.hub.hubzilla.de
Like a shooting star
Mar. 26th, 2026 11:56 amravensilversea Fandom: Katekyou Hitman Reborn
Relationship: Byakuran/Miura Haru
Rating: G
Tags: Canon Compliant, Double Drabble, Fluff, Wingfic, Established Relationship, Flying, Late at Night
Summary: Haru has never been up so high
Prompt: KHR Hanami 2026 Day 1: Flight |Blanket Fort
Notes: Title is from A Whole New World from Disney's Aladdin, which also happens to be the song that was loosely stuck in my head while writing this lol
Ao3
The sky stretches out beneath her, all dark rolling hills and twinkling lights. Wind whips through her hair, pulling it out of her ponytail until it blows free. She laughs, and the sound rings.
Above her, fiery wings shield her from the worst of the cold. They cut through wispy clouds like butter on a hot pan. Beneath them, her arms glow like dawn’s light.
Haru should be afraid. It’s a very long fall to the ground after all. But the arms around her waist hold her securely to a firm chest, and her lips still taste of marshmallow sugar, and she knows if she looks up, she’d find lavender eyes which have seen across thousands of worlds and there isn’t a single one where he’d let her fall.
“What do you think, my Haru-chan?” Byakuran whispers in her ear.
“Haru thinks it’s beautiful.” Then, wistfully, she adds, “I wish I could see us from the ground. Perhaps we would be a shooting star Haru could wish on!”
Her angel laughs. “Ah, my sweet Haru-chan, never change. What need do you have for wishes anyway when I’m with you?”
And Haru finds herself unable to name even a single wish.
Relationship: Byakuran/Miura Haru
Rating: G
Tags: Canon Compliant, Double Drabble, Fluff, Wingfic, Established Relationship, Flying, Late at Night
Summary: Haru has never been up so high
Prompt: KHR Hanami 2026 Day 1: Flight |
Notes: Title is from A Whole New World from Disney's Aladdin, which also happens to be the song that was loosely stuck in my head while writing this lol
Ao3
The sky stretches out beneath her, all dark rolling hills and twinkling lights. Wind whips through her hair, pulling it out of her ponytail until it blows free. She laughs, and the sound rings.
Above her, fiery wings shield her from the worst of the cold. They cut through wispy clouds like butter on a hot pan. Beneath them, her arms glow like dawn’s light.
Haru should be afraid. It’s a very long fall to the ground after all. But the arms around her waist hold her securely to a firm chest, and her lips still taste of marshmallow sugar, and she knows if she looks up, she’d find lavender eyes which have seen across thousands of worlds and there isn’t a single one where he’d let her fall.
“What do you think, my Haru-chan?” Byakuran whispers in her ear.
“Haru thinks it’s beautiful.” Then, wistfully, she adds, “I wish I could see us from the ground. Perhaps we would be a shooting star Haru could wish on!”
Her angel laughs. “Ah, my sweet Haru-chan, never change. What need do you have for wishes anyway when I’m with you?”
And Haru finds herself unable to name even a single wish.
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Mar. 26th, 2026 11:23 amkradeelavthinking a lot about atlantis: the lost empire (animated) movie lately again :
a) that scene when the gang shows their ""true colors"" to milo (thankfully temporary) and he's going 'wtf are you DOING (ransacking a living city/doing a colonialism' and they're like 'money.' not particularly happy about it, not particularly sad about it, not particularly angsty. (we've spent the past hour getting to know them and their complicated lives before being mercenaries, the context should probably be said they're all quietly minorities who had to figure out how to make ends meet because the world kinda sucks like that.)
like. man. idk if disney could ever get that Real about it again. i feel like modern disney would either straight up not have that scene or go the other direction and do an awful whole guilt-trip-the-audience flashback sequence to pull on the heartstrings for Le Characturrr Engagement pointswhen that lowkey kinda sabotages the point of Not being complicit etc.
b) how almost weird it is that rourke for being such a bad/awesome villain, white colonialist edition, actually treated said team with like. genuine basic respect for their competency. very much a 'nothing personal' guy after money. damn he's refreshingly honest, other than the, you know, sacking the city.
i had/have such a horrible crush on rourke you don't even know. yes i have terrible taste in fictional dudes. :p
it had its issues but man what a kickass movie. i would watch it again if i wasn't specifically trying this year NOT to rewatch everything again (other than this tellius playthrough)
a) that scene when the gang shows their ""true colors"" to milo (thankfully temporary) and he's going 'wtf are you DOING (ransacking a living city/doing a colonialism' and they're like 'money.' not particularly happy about it, not particularly sad about it, not particularly angsty. (we've spent the past hour getting to know them and their complicated lives before being mercenaries, the context should probably be said they're all quietly minorities who had to figure out how to make ends meet because the world kinda sucks like that.)
like. man. idk if disney could ever get that Real about it again. i feel like modern disney would either straight up not have that scene or go the other direction and do an awful whole guilt-trip-the-audience flashback sequence to pull on the heartstrings for Le Characturrr Engagement points
b) how almost weird it is that rourke for being such a bad/awesome villain, white colonialist edition, actually treated said team with like. genuine basic respect for their competency. very much a 'nothing personal' guy after money. damn he's refreshingly honest, other than the, you know, sacking the city.
it had its issues but man what a kickass movie. i would watch it again if i wasn't specifically trying this year NOT to rewatch everything again (other than this tellius playthrough)